No hope anymore.

Just found out something and i really hope its not real but it is and i have to accept it. Just feeling so sad now,cried out just now but not feeling any better. Won't be telling any one what happened,this has got to be my greatest regret. I am so tired. I dunno what to do. I feel so sad. If only i can die in my sleep later,things will be much better. All my motivation gone,no point to work hard anymore. Just dunno...