Life not really good. Full of ups and downs.
Just thank god for giving me the strength to hang on.
Lets Start with school.
Ever since holiday ended.I really don't like going to school.
Mainly is because I don't know how to face her.
The 3 of us are not the same anymore. I am not happy when I am with you both.
Maybe that's why I choose to avoid you both if possible.
I am sorry that I changed. I am not as cheerful and as easygoing as I used to be. You are right.
People change when they are hurt. So do I.
Sorry for all the quarrels I had with you guys.
Maybe I deserve it.
Now on family.
This few weeks keep having fights with my mother and it keeps on getting bigger and bigger.
I don't know how long more I can hang on to. I have no one to turn to. I felt so lonely.
Today the fight was big. First time I was so angry that I push her.
She keeps wanting me to move in and stay with my father.
Sometimes I wonder if she treats me as a son.Everything she do feels like she hates me a lot.
I am just tired of this family.
Tired of everything.
That's why I really don't look forward to anything in my life now. Best is I can die today.
But of all bad things that happened.
Some good things do happened.
Met some nice friend that understand me.
And during this type of times then you will know who are your friend and really care for you.
Best thing I ever did is to know GOD,gave me the strength to hang on.
Church is sometime I look forward to after a long and tiring week.
Church is my true home and the only place in the whole world I feel happy in.
So hope you guys can accept Christ in your life too.
Tats all for today.
Nights
